Comfortably Numb: A Legendary Death Song

One day I’ll be placed six feet under as Comfortably Numb resonates in the air. This is my death song.

That may sound a little morbid, so what do I mean by that?

Comfortably Numb by Pink Floyd contains one of the most epic guitar solos ever written. And what better way to go out of this world than to a five minute guitar solo?

I want this played whenever that fateful day shall be.

To some this may seem pointless, to wish for something after you’re gone. But I want those present to hear what I’ve heard and hopefully feel what I’ve felt.

When I listen to this song, I feel something different. Something more.

I can feel this song in my bones. I can feel the emotion.

And when listening to it under a clear night sky, I can feel the stars and the infinity surrounding us. I can feel the energy, frequency, and vibration, as Nikola Tesla would say.

I can feel the Universe…

There’s just something about this song that resonates with me on a very deep level, especially when looking at the spectacular night sky. When you understand what’s above you, and truly ponder what it all means, you come out a changed man.

You realize that nothing matters in the end.

That’s the harsh reality of time.

Thousands of years ago, I bet the ancient wars between civilizations and witnessing thousands of meteors at once felt like the center of the Universe (and the end of the world). But now here we are, and most people don’t have a clue about our ancient past.

Nothing matters in the end.

So if nothing matters, then does death matter? What happens to us when it’s all over? How do you get over death?

I don’t know, but I can say with time it feels something like becoming comfortably numb.

There’s nothing you can do about it. There’s nothing that can change it. Time ticks on, and you cannot reverse it.

Death is final. Even if it could simply be the transitioning marker between two different states or phases of being.

When someone dies, you may never get over it. But you can choose to let it eat you alive, or become comfortably numb in acceptance.

And when you consider the age of the Universe, the events that have brought us here, and the events that shall follow when we’re all long gone… you start to realize how your own happiness is the only thing that truly matters while you’re here.

Now, let me explain how we got here…


Looking Back In Time

This summer was a period of constant activity and deep reflection.

We went out to the mountains, like we always do.

I escaped the city and retreated into my open sanctuaries.

This is where I find inner peace. A stillness that opens up new possibilities in my mind.

Usually we shift between challenging hikes that result in phenomenal views, or more laid back trips where we relax next to a lake or waterfall and possibly setup camp for a night.

But this summer was different…

I wasn’t just interested in scaling jagged peaks and wandering through towering firs.

I wasn’t just interested in training my body and mind with challenging terrain and long distances.

I wanted to look into the dark heart of our galaxy, wreathed in its swirls of stars and star systems.

I wanted to truly experience some unbelievable distances.

After witnessing the total solar eclipse in 2017, I became obsessed with what’s above us.

I started seeking the darkest possible areas for mind-blowing panoramas of the night sky.

I wanted to see the light from millions of years ago in all its glory…

Hell, I bet half of you don’t even know what I’m talking about.

Light pollution is real, and the Masculinity Rising readers in big cities like Tokyo, New York, Los Angeles, London, Mumbai, or Rio de Janeiro most likely have never really seen the stars. People in China rarely even see the moon or sun… a combination of extreme pollution and light pollution.

This is crazy to me, since I grew up in the clean, crisp country.

I remember looking into the night sky and seeing billions of stars when I was young.

I flew back home from Seattle a few months ago, but the skies weren’t the same as my childhood.

As the years passed and civilization expanded, more and more of that breathtaking expanse faded away into the ether.

I used to drive home from work in high school and sit under the stars in the driveway with my chocolate lab.

Now, there’s so much light near any city that I have to plan trips into the wilderness to properly see the night sky.

There’s too much light, no matter where you go.

You have to go into some pretty damn remote places, and then get lucky with the weather, if you really want to see what I’m talking about.

And it’s not just to see some pretty lights, it’s to open your mind.

If you’re open to the experience, you can let go and let your mind drift into the cosmos and what it all means.

Allow yourself to travel across time.

You see, when you peer into the night sky, you’re not just looking at the stars. You’re looking into the past.

When you look at the stars, you’re actually looking at different sources of light, from all different time periods, spanning millions and billions of years…

You’re seeing things as they were millions and billions of years ago… not as they currently ARE.

Although light is the fastest thing in the Universe, it still takes time to travel the vast distances of space, distances so vast you can’t even wrap your head around them.

So much so that it may take millions or billions of years to reach your eyes.

So when we’re looking at a distant star, we’re actually seeing it as it was, not as it is. When you stop to truly appreciate this and think through the enormous scale of space and time, your mind begins to open like a flower.

There are a few reasons why people like Elon Musk are the way they are.

Number 1, they’re incredibly gifted and relentlessly work toward their goals and desires.

Number 2, they deep dive on subjects of interest and solve problems.

So many people have the problem of being unhappy.

Every little thing in their world is the end of their world. Everything is an over-reaction because they’ve grown lazy with the lack of discipline and failed to embrace their deeper animalistic drives.

We are meant to survive.

As a species, the human legacy is that of constant improvement and advancement. That’s how evolution works.

Each evolution, each generation, improves upon the last. There are regressions sure, but the total collective knowledge of the human race always continues to increase.

It’s insane to think how much knowledge was lost in events like the burning of the Library of Alexandria.

Regardless, we know so much more about the inner workings of our Universe now than any generation before. And new discoveries in astrophysics and quantum physics are happening all the time.

We are starting to realize that we may not know nearly as much as we thought.

Things don’t act the same on micro versus macro scales. The true laws of our Universe remain a mystery and the more we know, the more we realize we don’t know anything.


What Is The Meaning Of Life?

I’ve already told you.

To survive.

That’s it. Reproduction drives advancement.

Consume, reproduce, consume, reproduce.

We’re like a virus. Like bacteria.

We’re individuals that operate within a collective, even when we seek to isolate ourselves from the world.

No matter how much you seek to isolate yourself from the collective, there will always be the opportunity for an encounter or interaction. As remote as any place may be, you may still run into someone else.

Hell, you got there, right?

But back to the meaning of life. It’s not just survival. There’s a little secret.

The secret meaning of life is to be happy.

How do I know this?

All you must do is consider spacetime. On the macro scale of time, nothing matters. And that’s not a negative statement. I need you to understand this.

Nothing matters. Or rather, nothing else matters.

Nothing other than what?

Your happiness.

Now, that’s not to say you should go out and murder someone if that makes you feel all warm and fuzzy inside. There are morals and what is right and what is wrong, and most of the time these lines are pretty damn clear.

But you should do what makes you happy. For no other reason than your precious time here on this insanity of a merry-go-round we call Earth.

Your time is the most valuable asset you have, because your time here on Earth is barely a blink on the epic scale of spacetime.

The Earth will exist long after we’re all gone.

And even when the Sun consumes the Earth as it becomes a massive red giant, it won’t matter.

Remember? Nothing else matters.

Even if humanity escapes that fate and establishes a space-faring civilization way into the future, even that will face the heat death of the Universe.

On a long enough time scale, everything faces a dark, cold death. The stars will burn out, and the last beams of light and heat will fade away into the void.

Why are we here? We don’t know.

But what I do know is the wonders of this Universe are absolutely unbelievable.

I have pondered these distances and sizes. When you try to wrap your brain around these things, it all breaks down. It’s NOT UNDERSTANDABLE.

I’m an intelligent man and it gives me a headache.

A light year is the distance it takes light to travel about 10 trillion kilometers. TEN TRILLION.

You cannot imagine that distance! You can’t picture it. You can’t see it at scale. You simply can’t do anything with it, other than describe it.

These things are incredible and astounding, and a passion of mine.

You have to live your life. You have to be happy.

What makes me happy is escaping the city and exploring the mountains. What makes me happy is going far far away from civilization and lights, so I can see the lights above us.

If you do this, you will feel the vibrations of the Universe.

What that thing is, I have no clue. The Universe? God? Call it whatever you want to call it.

I call it both.

When you do these things, you start to see there is something more out there.

The Universe is beautiful and unrelenting. Mother Nature, the daughter, is the same.

You can’t beat the Universe and you can’t beat Mother Nature. If you tangle with them, they will raze your legacy to the ground. This is a fact.

It’s a fact if for no other reason than the unforgiving effects of time.

So again, nothing else matters but your happiness.

Your time here is only the blink of an eye, and before you know it your time will be over.

Nothing else matters but that happiness.

Not death, not loss, not anything.

Resonate with the Universe by promoting good and banishing evil. Act with good faith, and fight like the animal you are when you must. You must survive, but we all shall die. These are the yin and yang of our lives.

Black and white. Life and death. Dark and Light.

Allow happiness to shine through.

This rock will continue its journey around a colossal ball of fire and radiation long after we’re gone.

I’ve seen the visions. I’ve seen the cycles. I’ve seen the truth.

The best you can do is leave a legacy that’s not easily forgotten.

Even today, we speak of Achilles and Julius Caesar and Alexander the Great.

These men left such a mark on this speck of space rock that we still talk about them thousands of years later.

But a thousand years is nothing, and here we come full circle.

Revolutions. Cycles. The ebb and flow of the Universe.

Flow with them, for you cannot escape them. And in the words of another legend, “don’t worry about a thing, cause every little thing gonna be all right.”

We didn’t quite achieve our goal this summer, but we had the opportunity to see more stars than we have in years.

And even in failure, we were happy.

It’s about the journey, not the destination. Your entire life is a journey through time on a little speck of space dust. Learn to enjoy it.

We’ll be planning more trips soon.

One of my clients told me we need to charter a small boat and head out into the Pacific at night, then cut off all the lights.

He’s spent many years fishing in the open ocean, and says this is nearly the only true way you can see an unpolluted version of the heavens above us.

Man, that is going to be a sight…

This is the kind of stuff that drives me.

Be alone, that is the secret of invention; be alone, that is when ideas are born.”
— Nikola Tesla

I’ll catch you later. Destiny calls…

Nick Hagood
Masculinity Rising